Adoption Update

Everything is still moving forward with the adoption!  We just recently received new ultrasound pictures from the biological mom through our friend Lupe.  This little baby boy is getting so big!  He is now 34weeks old in the womb.  Lupe said that the mom looks great and healthy.  She is actually starting to smile and be more at ease.  At first we heard that she was very sad and anxious about the whole situation.  I pray for her every day.  It seems strange that she is carrying this child who might be our son and I've never met her before. It's probably easier for her that way, although this can't be an easy situation to go through.  She is still very resolute that this adoption is what she wants for her and the baby.  The doctor and Lupe both asked if she was still sure about this decision and she reaffirmed with determined resolution.
I'm trying to journal about this adoption to remember every detail.  God's hand is upon this baby's life in so many ways and I know that it is so easy to forget the amazing things that God has done when everything is in the past.  I want this child to know how mightily God moved to save his life and how loved he is.   God is so loving and kind and He guides us gently even as He reveals Himself to us through our circumstances and our brokenness.  I struggle with this truth as I wake every morning.  Worry, fear and anxiety plague my mind, but then I remember that God knows what is best for me and He's not going to allow me to go through anything that I cannot bear.  He also uses all things for His glory and our good.  I have to trust Him in that.  All of our children are in His hands whether they be adopted or biological. Sometimes, we get to see His plan as it works out before us, and at other times, we will never know. Nothing is set in stone, but I pray that He will prepare us for whatever comes.